Process and Preparation. You can’t have one without the other.

What would we change if we could look back on the times in our lives where we were in Process? What would change if we were determined to take an Eagle’s view, see the long-term in the moment, and Taste the Fruit of Intentional Labor? I know that I am in Process right now. I believe it is Preparation. The awareness of it right now, is a gift I am just unwrapping.

34 days ago I embarked on this journey. I never imagined going this long on just homemade vegetable broth and fresh juice. I’ve had an occasional egg, or half an avocado, and steamed broccoli just twice. I didn’t know that I would be making water kefir and kimchi and signing up for RAW milk, just so I could make creme fraiche and yogurt. My kitchen has changed so dramatically, I still cannot believe it when I look around.

I may seem cuckoo to some, and to others I am speaking your language. I just needed to admit that I hardly recognize myself and my surroundings, but there’s something appealing about that.

I have been BROKEN repeatedly, and sometimes more than I could bear. It is not easy to deny yourself everything that you love. I am still in my kitchen (which I’m realizing is really my office) for 4 to 5 hours a day. I am touching and smelling and gazing at the wondrous and radiant colors of fresh organic produce and creating yummy food for my family all day long. Hence the breaking…

I’m in Process and I’m being Prepared.

In this Incredible GAPS journey that has turned into a 40 day fast, I have stumbled upon a Glorious Revelation. It’s not really exaggerating to say that I have basically given up EVERYTHING  in the grocery store. Yet in this painful process, I have realized that these choices are creating a Blank canvas on the inside, a New Beginning, when it comes to food and my health. I am being Prepared.

If I have been Broken, then I am put back together by the “what if’s” and HOPES of a NEW Life, one with a Strong and Healthy body…

I have basically been preparing a blank canvas. I am ripping down addictions and habits and idolatry of food. I am experiencing a newfound clarity in how I would like to proceed, and how I would like to dress this canvas. I will get to pick out the colors and textures and brushes.

His Grace has been sufficient for me. There is no way I am sitting here today without it. I would have FAILED the first day.

I am in Process and I’m being Prepared. Just Soaking in that right now, and being Intentional…