I wanted to be prepared. I wanted to have all the GAPS recommended supplements lined up and ready to go. I wanted to have the confidence of knowing what I was doing; to be Fearless and Brave, a Conqueror. I wanted to at least finish reading the book…

…but I didn’t.

I wasn’t any of the above. I was just a girl, who decided to drink carrot juice one morning. I felt really good, so I just kept drinking it. I was “practicing,” and I felt much better, so I just kept going. I had boarded my spaceship and was zooming off toward the stars.

I had taken the plunge. Before I knew it, I was two days in. It felt really easy and I started experiencing this strange new phenomenon… All I wanted to do was go outside for a walk. I just wanted to MOVE around and I had (gulp) Energy! I haven’t felt that in years! I’m serious!

So I just kept going! I got my supplements in the mail, which included fermented cod liver oil (high pitch “EEEK!)  and decided to stay the course. I dove in the book (Gut and Psychology Syndrome) and I am still studying it. It is AMAZING! For anyone who wants to take their health back and set their kids up for success health-wise, please read it!

Here I am, day 6 of mostly juicing green lemonade and carrot-ginger juice, and drinking homemade vegetable broth. My first stop on my adventure finds me lacto-fermenting away. I have coconut milk kefir and water kefir doing their thing, and a 2nd attempt at coconut milk yogurt on the agenda for today. I branched out some more and made ghee (clarified butter).

I feel pretty good. I have moments when I feel “loopy” and times when I feel like I can do anything! I thought I would cry every minute at NOT being able to eat food. Instead, I find myself excited for what is to come! As I walk by the fruit bowl I am excited for an apple with almond butter! I had so much of that for so long I thought I would never want to eat it again!

I have made it this far, around my family who is eating lots of yummy healthy food that I cannot partake of, but that I am preparing. I am touching it, smelling it, breathing it, and you know what? I am OK! I was so scared of that part for so long! Food is my love language, my creative outlet, my passion. It will come back into my life, slowly and carefully, and I will enjoy it. For now, I must do this. There is Grace for it.

I am just taking it hour by hour, and I feel like I can keep going. It isn’t as scary or hard as I thought it would be! I could go back anytime, but I would never know what could have been… This is a ride of a lifetime. For MY life to have a renewed Quality of Life birthed within it.

I don’t remember what it’s like to not have pain, or make choices everyday due to limitations and pain. I don’t remember that freedom. But I want it and this is my way of going after it. It is something I CAN do.

My whole life could change and be so drastically different that I wouldn’t recognize it! This potential and Hope of a Promise keeps me going. It fuels my spaceship to go a bit further. I have to hang on to the dreams that lie ahead…